Things are strange

Hey folks,

long time no journal, guess I liked watching those concert photos on my last one. 
Perhaps you´ve noticed an increase in my artistic activity... well, some things happened and I need to get the feels out, somehow, which seems to have brought my inspiration back. Terrible price, though. I´m fighting it, I´ll get over it, it won´t kill me, it´s just hard right now, living and all.. For one thing, though, I´m even more motivated to move out and start anew somewhere else. Which is going slowly.

I just got an answer from the university, it wasn´t what I expected. Seems I have to go up there a month earlier and take an exam that proves I know my German on a certain level, actually the highest level a foreigner can achieve, I think. Which is ridiculous. The exam alone costs about 100 €, and I have to attend some lections as well, to get used to the exam format, so it´s all time and money which I would rather spare... and it´s ridiculous, because I have actually already covered this language level in 2009! And I sent a certificate to prove it! Plus, I wrote them letters and mails in my best German (which is very good, yes, I´m boasting), and, come on, it´s my job to be a fluent speaker and to keep a high level on my written language, I actually get paid for this. There´s a minimum of 400 school hours one should have to attend this university, well, I have about 1600, and still!!! 

Everything is so strange and fucked up and angers me, my job is total chaos, most of my friends don´t speak to me, those who do speak to me are no longer in the country, the person I loved more than anything else just dropped the whole thing like it wasn´t even worth thinking about, and yes, I´m ranting, because there´s just nobody I can rant at and because I need it, and damn, I´m getting drunk tonight. 
Sorry.